Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Stressed


I'm so stressed - and when I'm stressed, I can't function. So you can imagine how awful work has been this last couple of weeks.

All I can do is think of escaping - which is generally what happens when I start to feel this way.

I'm off to Montreal for Labor Day! I'm so excited, I'm going to get to see my brother whom I haven't seen since Xmas. It's one of my favorite cities in the world. In fact, I would live there in a second if it wasn't so frigid during the winter months. It's a piece of Europe in the North America. I hear Quebec City is even better, but I haven't had a chance to get up there.

Anyway, its crazy, I leave on saturday morning, which should feel like soon, but all I see between now and then is more work than I have time to do! YUCK!

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

On loss and life


8 days ago, one of my closest friends passed away. She was 27 years old. I am still in shock...Its the strangest thing, realizing your mortality and that of our loved ones so early on in life. She wasn't sick, she had a brain aneurysm. And that was that. No time to plan for it, no time to ready yourself for the loss -- she was just gone, from one day to the next.
Life is a little bit duller.
And yet, we've had beautiful days the last couple of days here. When I look outside the window, I see everyone going about their day as though this huge loss didnt happen. Thats when I realize how small we all are in this big world and how little we know about those around us. How many times have I sat next to someone in the metro without knowing they were suffering the agony of having lost someone close to them.
We all need to start caring more, as a people. We all need to let those we love know how much they mean to us, because no one knows how long they will be in our lives. Nor do we know how long we will be in ours.
And stop smoking -- its one of the causes of brain aneurysms, and its just stupid.

Friday, August 1, 2008

On budgets

I really need to create a budget. I'm a shopaholic, I can't deny it, and I love eating out....and I have no discipline.

Ugh...how can I motivate to actually create a budget (which in and of itself seems exhausting to me) and then actually stick to it.

My problem is that no matter what is on my budget, I'll still buy plane tickets that I can't afford ... and shoes that i can't afford ... and well...pretty much everything else that I want that I can't afford.

I'm doomed.